Friday, February 25, 2005

The Secret of the Universe

...according to Stacey -- and now, TO ME. It all makes sense -- how could I not see it before?

The Secret of the Universe

Thanks, Stacey. And I'm lucky I know when someone does something magical for my soul...

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Year of the Rooster

Happy Chinese New Year!

Vivian and MandoVivian, the soon-to-be-photojournalist :) took these at the Chinese New Year Parade in Pasadena, CA last Sunday, February 13. (That's her friend Mando on the stilts :)

Funny, when I saw these three zoo people walking around with chickens, I thought there was going to be a cock fight somewhere or these guys were on their way to gettin' roasted. (I'm so Filipino -- and yes, cock fights are illegal in the U.S.) Ends up if you pet one during the Year of the Rooster, it's good luck. So I did of course -- how can it NOT be good luck to pet a c*ck during the year? (I'm a BAD Filipino at that! hehehe)

More soon -- this week's been jam-packed -- glad you gals (and Hairy) are keeping the fires warm amongst yourselves here, you're always welcome!!!

Saturday, February 12, 2005


No thinking allowed today... thanks Hairy Hoser!

1. What time did you get up this morning? 3:38 PM
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds -- my birthstone -- of course! Never owned one though...
3. What was the last film that you saw at the cinema? The Wedding Date
4. What is your favorite t.v. show? The Apprentice
5. What did you have for breakfast? $1 Double Cheeseburger at Mickey D's (well that was embarrassing)
6. What foods do you dislike? overly "healthy" stuff with no taste
7. What is your favorite cuisine? my mother's
8. What are your favorite potato chips? Sour cream and onion Pringles
9. What is your favorite c.d. at the moment? "Wicked" soundtrack
10.What is your favorite sandwich? Last night I had a BBQ beef... not too bad! No real favorite -- something anyone else makes for me.
11.What characteristics do you despise? Not willing to grow
12. Favorite item of clothing? Hale Koa hotel T-shirt from Hawaii
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? Today... mmm, Venice.
14. What color is your bathroom? white, blue, purple
15. Favorite brand of clothing? "clean"
16. Favorite time of day? Right about now.
17. What was your most memorable birthday? 31 -- Karaoke party -- there were people there from all walks of my life, it was so strange!
18. Where were you born? Wilmington, Delaware
19. Favorite sport to watch? Figure Skating
20. Who do you least expect to do this? Hope
21. Who do you expect to do this first? Allie
22. What fabric detergent do you use? Tide/All -- whatever I steal from Mom
23. Coke or Pepsi? Coke
24. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Vampire
25. What is your shoe size? 10
26. Do you have any pets? Yvette, my pug
27. Any new and exciting news? nope
28. What did you want to be when you were little? First woman baseball player
29. What should you be doing today? cleaning the house, lots of accounting
30. Birthday and Sign? 4/10 Aries

More funky dreams

That's what I get for taking a "nap" at 8:15 pm -- woke up at 1:30 am a bit freaked out... I'm humming the music to Wicked, making friends with Barbra Streisand in college (I LOVE BABS, so no snarkiness allowed here :), then walking around by myself in the town square of Brugge, Belgium...

Brains and dreams and memories are just... weird.

Note to dear Jeffrey -- YES on Wicked, YES on Bye Bye Birdie and YES on Rick's Academy Award party, especially if you'll drive! And I'm answering you here as a lovely thanks for checking up on me here all the time!!! When someone said you should write your blog to a "someone" -- well, betcha didn't know my someone was YOU!!! Love ya...

Friday, February 11, 2005

Happy Talk

Happy talk, keep talking happy talk,
Talk about things you'd like to do,
You gotta have a dream, if you don't have a dream,
How you gonna have a dream come true?

From the musical South Pacific (1949)
Music by Richard Rodgers
Lyrics by Oscar Hammerstein II

(Hey, this is like an Answer Girl blog entry, how fun! I could go off on a South Pacific tangent -- Bloody Mary, Liat, me, my mother -- right now... but I'll save it for another day :)


Had a terrific lunch (three hours!) with my Composition professor, off-campus even! Of course I'd offered to "buy the muffin" as we usually meet up in the cooler or the cafeteria... but off-campus... uh-oh, I only had $20 on me... Fortunately he picked Thai food and my car was in good, clean shape... what a wonderful catch up time, productive and enriching. Good talk about my recital, Filipino-American stuff... just good talk, filling for the soul! And the banana-coconut soupy sweet dessert -- wow, was that tasty! And he bought... how lovely was that :)

[So as to not jinx him, I won't speak anymore about the "search" process except that my mother is praying for him to get it so he can for sure help me out. :) Oh Mom... always looking out for me!]

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

You Are Independent Sexy

You drive men crazy with your "playing hard to get act." Except, it's really not an act at all. You're a strong, sexy woman with her own life and interests. And it makes men even more interested in you!

What Kind of Sexy Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

No surprise there! heheheh (Thanks Stacey!)

So much for Internet Dating...


Budding Jordan cyber love ends in divorce

Yup -- I would've fainted too. HAHAHA

Monday, February 07, 2005

I'm no movie snob!

Dermot MulroneyI see what I want to see, no matter who tells me what.

Guess I had to see The Wedding Date -- which I can't get out of my head...

NICK: Close your eyes. Close your eyes. Close... your... eyes. You're safe. You can relax. I'm not going to kiss you. He's gonna be so sorry he lost you, so stop worrying. Forget the past. Forget the pain. And remember what an incredible woman you are. You do that and he'll realize what he lost.

KAT: You're worth every penny. [WATCH THIS SCENE HERE] Mama mia!

THE WEDDING DATE w/ Debra Messing and Dermot MulroneyNice pic of Dermot's palm too... Nice hands. Reminds me of two old crushes I had in real life -- Eric Wells and Dustin Halterman, both actors, but worlds and ages apart... that's for another day.

As Tony says in West Side Story
Something's coming,
I don't know what it is,
But it is
Gonna be great!

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Gussied up for Gael

Gael Garcia Bernal in The Motorcycle Diaries

HUBBA-HUBBA! No, I didn't really see him in person tonight, just went to see Bad Education tonight with a girlfriend. What a dreamboat this Gael is. Between him and Diego Luna of "Y Tu Mama Tambien" -- ohfuggetaboutit... I'm cuckoo for these hunky Latin Actors. Good old Antonio (Banderas) of course leads the way, being all the more age-appropriate...Diego Luna and Gael Garcia Bernal"

It's the first Saturday night I've been OUT to have FUN with a FRIEND in a long time... and she since she's been chomping on the bit to try the "other side of the fence" (as in she went to her first girl bar last night), all her energy and "let's just not think and let's dance and be present" vibe has caught on tonight! And I'm so happy, excited... joyous!

1997 is when the world as I knew ceased to exist -- I hit my head on that damn water slide, started up on depression meds, broke up with my first real boyfriend, had lots of stress.

1998 I got fired from my longest job ever (four years). It was horrible trying to make it work, and quite a relief to be gone from an atmosphere I hated.

1999-2001 I worked on "Xena" in an office of five and it was the best thing for me to "cave it" at home, be a hermit, find a world online. I didn't even have a phone. But I did learn to not have to think about anyone or anything else but myself, and that was a miracle -- UN MILAGRO.

Then I found hand analysis, started to venture out, went back to two colleges to finish my degree, had some successes in theater and music.

Now, I'm ready to join the rest of the world again -- I really felt it tonight. All of a sudden there's a new Los Angeles there again, one worth putting lipstick and non-tennis shoes on, blowdrying my hair and finding some earrings...

It's funny, I don't have to date, I don't have to have a relationship. I am beginning to feel normal. Like wanting to wake up before 10, go to sleep before 1:00 am -- join the rest of the planet on the non-vampire schedule. And I'm not getting claustrophobic or panicky about it either... that's such a good sign!

Next week... have to do better checking in with my teammages about my "nanny chores" ... I pretty much sucked this week and even forgot my meds a number of times. Today, I'm going to do better.

Oh just thought of this... because I was in a scheduled chat tonight for Kulik's Krew, I turned my IM on (it's 99% NEVER ON) and lo and behold, I got very cleverly IM'd by a clever fellow in Burbank. Now I haven't played that "hook up" game in a VERY VERY long time, but this YOUNGSTER was a witty one and made me laugh. But eventually I had to leave, I said no... and yes... I FELT THE POWER OF BEING ME by being able to say NO! So wonderful.

As TL says -- you can't say YES until you really can say NO. And what I learned from a Channeling Venus workshop this past week (yeah VIV!) -- I avoid NO like the plague -- but I also avoid YES too. But now the channel's open for any kind of heartfelt decisions -- but only about what's good for ME.

So today I said NO to hooking up -- and I said YES to the rest of my life.

[Oh, and did I mention I'm meeting with my composition professor next week -- I'm attending his public presentation for the interview to get this tenure position and he asked me to come. Bien sur, Monsieur! I'll be there. But better yet, he encouraged me to finish my composition recital -- in case he doesn't get the position, he'll be gone next year, and then where would I be? Oh... hadn't thought of that... so I'm going full-steam ahead... and it feels good to be that focussed!

It feels like when I first moved to NYC -- A Whole New World and Who Am I in it?

Fab Fab Fab.

[Which also reminds me that this week my favorite Bachelorette Couple, Meredith and Ian broke up! Talk about another fairy tale crushed. But at least this time... I'm not consumed with other people's lives... my own (finally) feels so much more important. Yay!]

A Mysterious Kiss

Thanks to Hairy Hoser for this one -- I'm glad you were bored, cause I LIKE finding out I'm "Mysterious!" (And you're "Entrancing"... wow, wonder what your answers were to get that! :)

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005

This one's for YOU, Viv C.

I am SO not surprised at what I scored!!! Only 1/2 my age exactly.

Boy, I'm in trouble.


You Are 22 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Kind of Soul Are You?

No energy today at all... but I can tell I'm on the upswing... I actually got a little warm today and had to take off a sweatshirt... very good news.

I used like being sick when I was young because it was the only time Mom-The-Nurse gave us 100% attention. It was her mission to get us well as soon as possible and without getting anyone else -- especially her -- sick. So into quarantine we went... but I'll tell you, that "containing the germs" stuff really works. Sometimes I get shocked -- she can be a straight-out Westernized Registered Nurse who goes to the Tylenol on first sign of an illness, and yet be the most superstitious Filipino woman I've never met ("Say your rosaries. Here's the holy water from Lourdes. Now the asuangs (witches?) won't get you."

Ah, the benefits of cultural diversity.


You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul