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Hot off the press and
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I already know how feel, finally... I don't have to wait for HER2 retreat to begin and end this weekend. Because until last night, I was letting myself feel ANYTHING... until I watched this "Grey's Anatomy" last night, the aftermath after Derek's death.
All of a sudden I was Meredith, trying to survive without "my" him. And I couldn't stop weeping. It was hard to admit to Pam at Denny's when she asked me: "Do you love him?" because I was so pissed off at what I thought was an idiot move on his part, to try and leave me.
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Simbanggabi, 2014 |
And "I don't want to live without you. Ever."
Yes, I'm an emotional drama queen... but now acknowledging how I feel freed me up to admit how hurt I am, instead of being the "strong" one. I can weep. I can grow. I can move.
As Joel says, quoting "The Tao of Steve" I must stay busy and "Be excellent." And most of all, of course, pray.
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