A Mellow Merry Christmas

Who knew when I went to the first St Edward's Simbang Gabi five years ago I'd be conducting the choir... and my life has made a huge shift...

Simbang Gabi has ended and I have to be at the Hall to rehearse for our last mass. Christmas morning mass, which I didn't expect to have to do... but we're making it easy... we sang most of this yesterday.

Why mellow? Hm... my heart hasn't been this open in a long, long time. To combine it with (1) impossibility, (2) a core issue about myself, (3) this incredible Filipino music (4) and this creative project ENDING...

I can't keep myself together, it really has been so long. Tears won't stop... And I can't tell if it's better to stay closed and cerebral or be this open and raw...

What a blessing and miracle to have this Simbang Gabi choir experience. Thank God.

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Write Now

"If one advances confidently in the direction of one's dreams, and endeavors to live the life which one has imagined, one will meet with a success unexpected in common hours." -- Henry David Thoreau

I wish I could remember where I heard this -- a man on television said it, and I forced myself to remember SOMETHING about it until I could get to a computer. All I remembered was "common hour." Well, good enough for me for now :)

I decided to write again after a year and three months. Lately so many of my friends have become terrific blog writers (Heidi, Andrew, Meredyth and yes, my brother Jeff as well), I didn't think I was anything but drivel. Fancy layouts, Google Adspace, insightful philosophies and observations. etc. -- I thought to revise mine and maybe try to make money? Get lots of hits? Get known? Meet new people?

Natch.

All I needed was to read that someone else was very purposely using their blog as a journal, for nobody but themselves. Now THAT'S me! I've been trying to "live in the now" (thanks Eckhart Tolle) which means I've got a memory of sieve. So... my blog is here to be my memory.

(Where did I hear that line: "I'll be your memory"... ah, Nick Nolte in "The Prince of Tides.")